i have been so insanely self-centered that i am oblivious to all others. 
i found out a couple i know turned vegetarian only like a day ago, when they announced it at a previous gathering.
and a colleague had been going thru some shit, and i didnt sense it and only knew when i read about it.
little and big things had happened to people i know over the past year or so but i don't retain the information. or is it that my friends don't bother to tell me things anymore?
it seems in my life now is just t, my family, the work thing and how the world hates me and is mistreating me. man - what has happened to me?
and the scary thing is, i dont know how to start caring about others. i'm fucked.